UAI~ Good luck girl!

so it's been quite a while since i blogged... well, now's a dam GOOD time for me to write somethings in....

so.. we ended our exams (hsc exams) last month.. and wow.. wat a holiday i had!

mom cancelling off a trip i planed. last min! that was ... ok..... hurtfull..... n worst thing, i had to come up with a whole new trip.... just because of SOMEONE! so... we did go in the end n... yeah... we had fun (excluding the part where he scolded me in public, so.. ARGH!)

n so... came back.. rested up... a week after that.. wow... another trip to the same place! and... that was... so so so so... BORING... well, i have to admit we had fun in genting.. but kl was lk.. BLUEK! nothing to do at all!! or should i just say.. "SO SIAN LO!"

thn.. we came back... n... i stared buying stuff for alumni nite... n wow we.... wat a nite! Got scolded for NOTHING!! by him n my mom....  which is... SO UNFAIR!!! I DID NOTHING ... n yeah.. got scolded... FOR DAM SHIT HELL NOTHING!!! but ended up, i did had a fun time..... taking photos with friends... haha

so.... now.... haiz.. i'm sitting here... waiting fr my results to come.. UAI a... pls god!! HELP ME!!!

BULLSHIT!!! malaysia policeman! WTF!

Finals... today. YEah, just finished esl p1... n to think that i was in such a happy mood. First time i manage to finish the paper in time.... and ends up i got in a car crash!

So, i was out with my friends.. just coming out from the hostel... wanted to have lunch to celebrate... relax..... and who would have thought... a motorcycle.. just came out from no where... and smash my car side mirror! HURRAY for me! my first accident with a bike!!! YAY!

So ok.. he said he wanted to make a police report.. and so i did... make one.... with my dad.. n friends~ Who would thought the night mare got worst there??!!

I went in... n the police just chased my friends and dad away... so he first asked..."Itu bapa kamu ke?" "Ya..."

 "Dalam kereta?" "Tak" 

"Yang lain?"

"kawan"

"mengapa?"

"witness"

"dalam kereta?"

"ya"

"U ingat mereka dalam kereta boleh jadi witness?"

"Kenapa tak boleh?"

and he kept on branging... n haiz

thn he went into the case... which i was totally not involved in! And worst, he even scolded me "DON BULLSHIT ME!".... so ended up it was the wrong case he was talking about... n i got scolded.. n i argued.. for HALF AN HOUR!!!! WTF!!!! Bullshit me?? y don;t u bullshit ur self thn?? Malaysia policeman..... not even wanting to admit that their wrong!!! 

Now i don even have a car to drive... my right mirror... all gone!! N i still have exams!! n i got scolded BULLSHIT! F*Ck U man! don u think that ur're a police u can just say that u are right! or forget about everything!!!! I have my pride to take care of!!!! IDOIT!

What month is this??!! It's august... haiz

Alrite.. so now its the holidays.. means exams just past last week... n haiz.. what a terrible test that was... Leela's definatly going na kill me! n i slept like.. 5 hours a day.. studying the whole nite through... terrible... had a stupid fight with a stupid guy during the test.. which made the situiation worst...!

N now.. took two little kids out.. n i;m so dam broke!! How can two little girls eat so MUCH??!! Scary!!! I spent half my alowence on them!!! haiz....

N this month.. lets see.. there's one.. two.. three... oh my!! how many presents must i buy this month?? So much money to spent!!! So... haiz....

Not only that.. relative weeding this month.. same day as my BEST FRIEND's birthday... making me miss her birthday!!! n worst.. its in KL! means i surely going na spent more thn expected!! I M SO DEAD this month!!!

Adding school reopening... new sam!! TEST RESULS!! ARGH!!!! so much

N my hair!! haiz.... shouldn't have done that to my hair!! feel so.. ARGH!!! What month is this??!! oh ya.. AUGUST ......T.T

that's just him!!

wow... since so long i haven't been writting...well. kinda bust thought.. college life...

anyway.. thinkning back... so many things just happened during july...

First there's exam... again! n stupid lord... i only got 52 for my maths 2 unit!! now my parents are going na kill me... for sure!!! i haven't got such low marks for my maths b4.. this is definately the first!! i mean..... my maths should be good! dam good!! i like numbers!! n i just... just.. even my math extansion i was able to get 40 something!! which was so unexpected!! now i'm so dead!!!

next there's this stupid guy.. who broke off my saturday.. n my trust to my parents.. ya it's him.. took me out to bon odori... ended up bringing his dog kiki along..... which was kind off cute.... worst thing happened... when he wanted to show kiki off!! wa.. cause the dog was bringing too much attention.. n HE WANTED SOME!! walked of so dam fast.. left us behind... and... SELFISHLY not even wanting to look back.. not even wanitning to slow down!! n scolded ME.. ONLY ME.. SHOUTED AT ME!! for doing that!!!! saw all of us... n he only shouted AT ME!! wtf was that about!!! and ended up. i got home so dam late!! n my dad just shouted at me.. my mom just nag at me... n i didn't even had the strength to fight back!!!!

and thn... there's my birthday.. well... didn't wanted to celebrate actually casue of him... cause u see... i didn't wanted him to destroy my day.... i wanted to have a party.. but inviting friends is already such n issue!! he's like.... hates my friends!! he's acting dam shit lot like a prince.. and he still says NO he's not!! so dam hoping he falls one day!! see how his going na survive that day!! I dun care if he comes crashing down!! he's such a jerk!! y must everything go his way?? n not my?? i want things to go my way as well!! n he says he doesn't like it. Y?? simple.. cause its not going his way!! his dam FUCKING way!! that's y!!! idiot!!!

But i had fun on my birthday.... watching movies with all group of friends... n having fun!!! not bad actually... but he... oh god!! crashed his car.. ended up i had to fetch him home!(Driver) n reach home at 10!!! at night!!

that's july.. n wat he just did today.. i really felt like smacking him in the face... he thinks i need to help him do everythin?? idoit!! i dun even know pc stuff.. n wat ever i find.. he'll say its useless.. y bother doing it?? n besides.. he didn't tell me up front to find for him!!! so its his problem!! not mine... n i'm not going na appologies anymore!! N I M DEFINATELY NOT GOING NA FORGIVE HIM FOR ACTING LIKE A PRINCE FROM NOW ON!!! HE IS SO MUCH WORST THN A PRINCE!!! IDOIT!!!

hope monday i get to avoid someone else as well.... stupid bell.... thinking about it.. really hope i kill her soon!! SO DAM SOON!!!

NOt again!!

oh yes.. exam~ n i'm so going na fail this time~ yes i'm... hope not but.. i'm!!!

Praying really hard that i can do well next week.... i really really really wanna do well next week!! oh god!! pls give me strength when i enter the hotel room!!!

Gone~

Its all over... that's what i feel~ The old u.. has now changed.....
Quiting~ Tha's what i don't want to do... but it seems like i have no choice~ But to do so~ I've done so much.. and it seems its all gone just like that....
Tears pouring out everytime u say such things... u might not know what u have done.... n i just keep it up~ just fake a smile... not wanting to hurt u~
U too have your life... u feel much happier now.... so go on wif it....
I might be faking a smile everyday.... but its all worth it.. to see u much more happier... i dun want to destroy ur life cause of me...
U have them now~ U've found them.... n they seem right for u~ jus go on n forget me..... i'll try to forget what we've shared.. what we used to do..... those speacial days.. those cute arguements we have... the things we like to think alot.... its all gone~ just like that....
Everything i used to think that it was speacial.. its all not so speacial anymore....
Have Fun!!!

Exams, Again II

Yup.. just one month time and exam's are coming... again! Oh god! Should have stop HSC when i had the chance.... Shouldn't have continued on... Its so tiring~ I hope i can get more thn a band 4 for chem and phy. I just hope that i can pass my math ex... no need... all i just need is 30 marks this time. I m not asking much. Just 30 and above would be enough. Yea....

A true friend~ You're here to the end~ Hope you are. I don't even know why must we hurt each other everytime. I don't think i can go on any longger. Its.. its... so tiring.... u say u have ur pressure. I have pressure as well. I don't even know how to go on. I don't even know how can i face you. Wearing a mask is so tiring. U know that. U know how tiring it is to wear one. I m wearing one. In front of you. I can't be myself.. i don't know y.. ut i just can't be myself. Its too tiring to go on!

Is this what we call.. i dunno. We must argue with each other all the time.... And hurt each other feelings. Is this the true meaning of a friend?? A true friend?? Maybe we are abble to show each other our feelings. Or maybe we just think alike at times... Just maybe... Haiz~

Stupid~ Mother's Day

Did a stupid thing yesterday.... really really really... dum!

So.. went to his house.. took out a camera... n flimed like for nearly 3 hours?? n it looks quite.. cute n stupid! N yeah.. he post it up on u tube.. which i hope no one really goes finds out who i m.. esspeacially my mom's friends! i will die!!!

But that's not the funny part at all. This morning... my mom thinks that i've done something in his house..n we flimed some so called "porno" video at his place! LOL.... stupid.... wat a creative mom i have!!! yea.. dam creative!!

Oh ya... today is mothers day.... hope she... haiz.. just dun kill me la! i really hoped that there was a celebration at my mom sides... so sad... can't meet any of my cousins tonite. Stuck at home.. with MOM!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!

~The secreat~

I m going na be happy... i am going na follow my dreams.... Yes! I want to be what ever i want to be... That's the secreat i just found out.

The documentry show "THE SECREAT" has tought me alot today. My mom has the book but, i don't read. Lucky there's a dvd. And i learned so much! Why be mad... why be worry.... And now, my pressure's going away.

I want to be famous. Of cause. I want to sit in front of the tv, seeing other people loving me. Looking at me. My main dream! Yes. I wish that my dreams comes true! I really want that dream to come true.

I also want him to stay. To be my friend. To love me.... Man, i hope he doesn't read this! But WHO CARES! I want to tell him i like him. But if he says it first. Yes, no matter what happens. I want him to be happy. Not mad. I want him to smile. N not have so much trouble. To share most of his troubles with me. To tell me everything! I want that. I really want that!

I want... i want.... I just want it! Yes~ this feeling is so good! I finally feel better. I want my chem teacher to leave me alone. TO not ask me so much questions. To give me less pressure. No. I want her to like me. To care for me. I want... I want her to smile at me all the time. No matter what i do.

I want... i want.... i want.... i want to master~ the law of attraction!

Bad day~

Had the first worst arguement with my best friend last nite... i know.. its my fault.... its my fault thinking too much... n i gave him a big 747... its my fault....

Its my fault he didn't get to see his chem paper... his results.... i hope he lets me help out.... i really dun mind being brushed.... but i dunno y he doesn't want me to help him out... he is trying to avoid me.... i know tat.... maybe... leaving is good.. at least he won't feel so bad... seeing me.... haiz.....

i dunno wat to do... i should leave hsc actually.... really... since if i m going na drop add maths.... there's nothing i can do....! he feels bad about not getting his results... n its my fault... n he got brushed for nothing... and its all my fault... n he doesn't even wanna talk about it.... n...

i should leave... i still can go on for another path actually.... i dun mind stopping everything.... i really dun mind..... i m jamming my head up again.... the only reason i m staying in this corse.. the only reason i try brainwashing my self to stay on... to try on my best is not because of my dad... he thinks tat it but its actually not.... i dun have the guts to tell him.. its because of him i m staying on.. haging on... i dun even know y i made this stuoid decision... but thn.. if he really doesn't wants to be with me.... if he still thinks being wif me is having pressure.. i rather just leave.... i really dun wan him to feel bad... not able to take the results... i wanna help him out.... i really do... but thn.. he doesn't wants my help.....

I feel really really really bad..... lucky tmr is a holiday... i still have time to think through.... i told him i m going on.... i just dun wan him to give me anymore advise... he is the reason i m staying on..... i wanted to leave since the first day..... now i have the chance to but... i dun wanna leave a friend..... leaving a friend just like tat... its not worth it... lossing a friend....

But thn.. he doesn't even wanna sit my car anymore.... i should just leave... I won't want to go to school on friday anymore... since i m making him feel so bad..... tat's it.. i m leaving.... leaving for good..... so that he would feel better.... i dun wan him to feel lock up... i shuld leave.... i really should.....

He thinks my mind is finally injam.. actually... it has been jam since the day i meet him.. n been friends with him.. i just dun show it....i try keeping it in.... n its really bad for me to argue with him last nite.... i know...cause i couldn't stand it....

its my fault.. i wanna appolgies.. he doesn't want to think about it.. he is just running away from it.... n so now... i will make him feel better.. since hanging around with me is so terrible for him.... i will leave.... for good.... its settled...

Thanks for giving me such a long advise..... Thanks for spending the past few months with me.... i will help u feel better.... i will.... N this is the best way.... our friendship has broken apart... i can c a big hole... a really big one.. n nothing we do can mend tat back.... nothing i can do.... n nothing you can do.... I'll miss you.. i really will... but i'll do anything... so long as u feel better.... i won let u have anymore pressure.. i will not interupt in your daily life... if that's wat is best for u.. i will do it......

A cut can heal.. but the scare is there forever.... i know i can;t ask u to forget wat i have done.... its stupid to do so... so this is the best way... the best way for us.... i m not trying to hide.. i offered help.. n u dun want it... n.. there's not more i can do.... i m not like you.... i can't even handle my own life... i dunno how to help u solve yours.. that is why i m offering simple help... help tat can at least make u feel better abit.. n u reject it.... i know.. u dun wanna face it.. u dun wanna think about it.... u wanna try n forget it....

N this is the best way... for you to be happy.... the moment you don't see me... the time u dun even need to remember me.... so.. this is goodbye....
GOODBYE~ i dun wish for u to forget everything... i hope that when u see the scare in your heart.. u'll see the times we spent together.. the happy times we spent together instead of the times we argued and all.... GOODBYE~

Should I??~

Skiped school today.. thinking.... Actually I've made up my mind to drop hsc. The problem is, I just dun bare to leave my friends behind. ANd i dun even know what other corses should i risk my life taking.

If i go to lkw, well, i get to study what i want. I get to end up with what i want since last year, but thn i dun wanna come out with nothing. OK, maybe i'll end up with a cert, a piece of paper in my hand. But thn, its hard going after my dream job. I mean.. face it, we're in Malaysia. What job is there to do?? Unless I can be best of the best. Which is .... i dunno.... impossilbe i think.

Ok.. let's say i take up acca.. at least i can do some calculations. And, at least i can end up studying something which is not that difficult... I mean... compare scince to acc. I know everything is hard but, sure enough, science is way much harder thn acc. Agree??

O i should just continue to suffer?? Kill my brain.. end up with a good job, and hang on with my firneds. Friends.... I dun wanna just leave them. I mean.. i have already left them a big air bus today. I dun even know what is going throught thier minds right now. this is the worst air bus i have ever left someone in my whole life. BUt what's the point?? Going to school.. not able to think o concentrate in class?? And what's the point studying something i dun really like.. n i m bad in... Resutls show everything. I only got 29 for math ex... MAth ex is needed for engeneering... chem too... oh man.. i hate chem.. although i know i do quite well in it.. but i really hate it...

I really need to drop hsc.. but thn.. i have no idea at all what is the next step should i take. I rahter end my life here but thn its not worth it too... Just because i can't make uo my mind... i m letting so many people around me suffer... i dun wan that to continue on. I really dun.. BUt thn.. i really can't bare seeing myself suffer as ell.. i dun wanna end up studying something... n failing it in the end. I dunno.. i really can't make up my mind.

Are friends more important?? O studies are more important... Friends.... Studies.... i dunno... this is the major problem. If i can solve this problem.. i will know what step to go on next.... Should i go on doing something i hate.. just because of friends?? just because of him?? i dun think its worth it. YEah.. its not worth it at all! Y do so much for a guy who doesn't likes me at all?? Who doesn't know i like him at all??

Ok.. my mind is set.. I m leaving.. leaving hsc.... for good... i hope they really dun mind... not that im selfish n all but... i just dun get the point staying thre.. not being able to end up wif wat i want.... since i failed my sub... Would a tution teacher help?? Would leela help?? I really dunno!!! I enedee up in square one again didn't i?? I really have no idea wat to do at all!! I really need help.... really.. i do need help!

~Kl Trip~

Just came back form kl yesterday. Bought tons of things.... this is the first time i spent nearly rm600!!! I never spent so much before.. OH well, i was in such a bad mood... now i know why most women like shopping. It really cools a person down.

So nothing interesting about shopping. But going down to kl this time was not that fun if the shopping wasn't there. Had to visit some relative... n they started talking about the will again. I hate that.. is just money! Other's people money, and i still don't get it. Why must they fight for it.. when they themselves say they don't want it... Tis giving us a big headache. We are not involve in the will at all! and we have to suffer?! this is.... haiz.....

So, quite a lousy trip down to kl. But at least i bought many things! Haiz. Hope we get to go somewhere else for the nexdt hols. Hope that my cuz could join us this time. Its been such a long time since she joined us for a holiday.

Oh ya.. new term starting tomorow. No mood to go to school at all.. but.. what is there to do?? JUst face it... hang on girl~

~Best Friends~

What's a meaning of a good friend?? If arguements happens all the time... do you consider your relationship as a ood friend?? or a best friend?? or.. maybe you two are not frineds at all?? I dunno... i m still thinking about this.....

Protecting him.. is like doing more than what i should do... he is just a friend.... a normal best friend... n i m doing so much....

I put friends in front of my family... because frends are the only people who i can really share most of my problems with.. and most of my problems atsrts of with my family.. so how could my family possibly help me out at all?? Friends are the only people who can help out....

I know he's trying to talk some sence into me... I know somethings i done is my fault... But than... my parents are blaming him. N i dun like that... They said i have changed because of him..... he is my friend.. and i dun like that... i dun like my parents talking about my friends...

OK.. so he asks me to fetch him around... he dare's not look at my parents... ok.. maybe he is not a man.. but who dares face my parents?? they are like.... like.... MONSTERS!!!! who in the hell would wanna face them... n add on.. he is a guy!! My girl friends feel scared for the first few months.. meeting my parents.... My parents dun like me hanging out with guys.. so in the hell would have the guts to face them??

But.. thinking about it... m i helping him too much?? do i deserve this?? should i continue to keep everything inside?? n not tell him that most of my problems comes from him?? Or should i tell him?? Tell him out loud?? But would this destroy our friendship?? We argued for so many times and we can get ack together... but once i say this out... i m afraid that he would be gone for good! Our relationship would jsut.. break up!!! its not worth it.. but thn.. i feel so difficult!

Should i just go?? i feel like that.. i feel like going.. leaving everything behind... so manyt things are happening.. n non of those problems are solving! everything is getting worst! i duno... i just feel like leaving... leaving this place n starting of in a new place... I should go... YES! i shoudl find away to leave... n start on over... leaving everything behind....

But thn.. i would lost so many things as well...is it worth it?? throwing all those things behind?? Should i?? SHould i do so?? There's not much time.. only a few days left till make my big decision! should i just leave?? Or continue on??

Parents... HAIZ~

Ok.. so i might have broken some promises i made to them.. n ok.. so my dad borke his promise to me this morning... but thn.... is it fair?? i mean... its not my fault i m getting so much pressure!

Jan 2, told parents wanted to drop. "Try it out.. it's only the first day"

Feb 4, told parents can't do ipt."its simple.. i'll teach you" (yeah right)

March ??, told parents can't do chemistry and math ex 1. "ask help from teacher... dun worry"

April ??, told parents wanna drop again! "why didn;t you say ealier?? ......."

Ok... tat was over... too over!!! And now.. i m the one who is wrong for blamming them?! GREAT! Shouldn't have got brainwashed by them in the first place... why can;t they just let me go earlier?? The pressure is all coming in.. n know only they want to let me go! I hate this... say somwthing.. n try to correct it... n they think is just tat simple.. GIVE UP!!

Ok.. so tat's only part of it..... the worst part is.. they bought me a dam "good" laptop... ! i "like" it.... Therefore.. i think i'll keep it in a box.. o whoever once it can have it.... it's giving me night mares!!! just because it is better.. . i asume that my dad would like it... n he would give me his old one.. like wat he normally does... so i just installed a few software into the old pc.. n he said the new one was for me..!

ok.. i dun really like the shape of the pc at all... is exactly the same as the old one my friend destroyed! Its heavy..n big... i nothing else...! Ya.. it has nothing else.... (except a great processer n a big memory....) Even my dad doesn;t want that thing! If he likes it.. he'll definately give me his old one.. but thn.. he doesn;t want to give up his old one.. that means he doesn;t like it at all.. there he goes again.. n giving an excuse of "its too big!"

Of cause its big.. tat y he bought it.. n gave it to me... great! I m stuck wif a big laptop... which nearly got me scolded! N its empty.... ok.. he'll find a way to install it.. i dun mind tat.. but thn..there he goes wif his attidute again.. giving stuff that he doesn;t likes.... n know that i wouldn't like either!

He says he doesn't gives me rubbish.. i m not saying he is giving me tat! I m just saying tat.. he is giving stuff tat he doens't likes.. n he know i wouldn't like it either... i just show tat i like it... so that he wouldn't feel bad.. but now.. i can stand it... he has gone over the limit...

Evrything he gives me is old! not one thing is new at all! ok.. maybe i shouldn't be complaining.. but thn... i need to say it out... he gave me a pc.. which is so dam old.. i needed to strain my eyes for three whole weeks before he changed the monitor screen for me... n guess wat... the monitor screen is also dam old... but thn.. at least it is in use.. so i dun mind..

The car he bought.. ok.. it was my idea.. i won complain about the car... speaking about it.. how can he fix the car.. whne he promise me that i could use it the next day! n now.. i can't even drive out at all!!! IDOIT!!!

So many things... haiz.. dun even wanna live in this world anymore.... I dun even know y m i here anymore!!! Its meaningless.. i done even have a goal to live.... i dun even have a life to live!!! DEING to DIE!! Wating for the time to come.. so.. when will it be?? the accident should have killed me off... thinking about the accident... if the pole could just came in futher... i woulnd't mind dieing! Not at all!!!

Bad Luck!!!

ok.. so exams are finaly over.... i should be happy about this.. but, funny.. i don't. I fell... sad... maybe its becasue of the questions...... I dunno.... I m writting this with a heart that is in deep pain. Feels like the tears are finding away to come out.. but thn.. it still stuck in there. Something is blocking its way.

Today's exam was't quite good.. CRIED terribly the nitght before. Should i continue on?? o maybe i should drop.. since its giving me so much pressure. I know, its just a small test, but than.... its still a test.... n... i dunno... feel that i shouldn't be taking this up... Wasn't able to finish up every paper.. except for maths and IPT.... too many things to write.... n yet so little time. HAIZ....

N ya... something else happened few days ago... it was thursaday... n i feel... SHOCK! Me and my freinds were just driving out for lunch, when suddenly.. the whole car just flew across the road.. and hit a pole.... my god!!! Just imagine.. the car went up a slope and stoped at an angel of 45 degress in mid air.. So lucky everyone was alrite.

Everyone went into shock mood of cause. I went into shock mood as well, since its my first time being invovled in an accident. But what triggered my shock mood wasn't about how the car flew across the road. Ya, its scary seeing the car flying across the road... everyone said that... but what worried me most was something else. I don't really know weather i should be saying this but... since its my blog.. i'll just say it.

Its terrible, seeing the car just fly pass like that, n too be sitting next to the driver.. what you see is what the driver sees. I was so worried about the driver. The most! just imagine.. u driving.. n your car spun out of control. The person would be most horrified would be the driver! The one with the wheel. He showed no sign of panic. N tried joking about it. Saying many things to clam people down. But deep down inside... i dunno y.... i just senced that there is something else bothering him. His was acting, showing that he was not panicing... but thn.. i felt that he wanted to let something out. HE was deffinately shock! i could see that. He just kept evreything in.

I couldn't be much help at that time... i felt so bad... the only thing i could do is to be by his side.. hoping that he could just show his true emotions in front of me. Its hard trying to keep everything in. But with so many people around.. that was the best way to show. I didn't said much about the accident. Cause the day before that, another friend of mine just got into one. I was just hoping that the next person wouldn't be me....

I was definately able to drive... its just an accident.. it can't be avoided. I didn't even think of how dangerous it would be if i took my car n drove the same road as him. I just rushed back, n took my car out. N drove him everywhere around town.

I m still in shock mood though.. i still think that the next victim would be me. If I got invovled in one.. i wouldn't mind.. if my parents wouldn't BRUSH so much! I m just affraid that... u know.. my freedom would be even more controlled by them! They are already contorlling 40% of it..... i don't want them to control 90% of it!!!! That y.. i m still in a bad mood!!

The car accident:

Exams.. AGAIN!!!

Haiz.. exams.. hate them.. always give you so much pressure for nothing...

Anyway.. today's maths test was easy... since i didn't really studied the night b4.. cause mood so DAM TERRIBLE!!! Couldn't teven study at all... But at least i couldn't answer only one question.. so its fine with me, just hope i don't make any SILLY mistakes... like my quiz.. cause of a negative sign... i lost 6 MARKS!!! Hope that doesn't happens...

And tomorow... just aiming for physics. Don't even wanna imagine how ipt would be like. Unless i really focus on it tonite... which will be impossible.. since i don't really get what the subject is all about. Hope to get good marks in physics though.. since its the only subject i like spending time reading.

Talking about our next sam.. can't stop thinkiong that our eng teacher is finally not going na teach us any more!!! YAHOO!!!!! That teacher.. haiz.. i don't even know weather i can pass esl cause of him! Hope i pass every subject.... haiz... IMPOSSIBLE....

Idiotic Teacher

It's been a year now since i stop posting blogs in here.. well anyway.. i m posting one right now.. to let every one know tat how angry n mad i m right now!

Its been fun starting of college in January.. new and old friends... no school uniforms.. no school shoes.. its like a whole new starting poitn for me...

Anyway.. This is what i wanted to really write in this blog...

I felt really sad the first day i changed my english class.... Y did i changed it in the first place? While its because of the ipt project we have to do... So i decided to change my time table.. so tat everyone in the group will have the same time table.. and everyone could do discussion at the same free time..

So, i changed my all my subject groups.. Physics turned out to be suberb (maybe is because of the few students in the class) , che too... maths was abit slow but i still could get wat the teacher was saying.. see the only two teachers i got to changed were maths n eng...

So. my firends told me that this english teacher was a pervert.. so ok.. i didn't mind tat... but then i whole perception changed when i first saw him...

Oh my.. he looks stupid.. yeap.. tat was the first thing tat came into my mind... so thn, i ignore the fact n i tried listening to him teach.. n omg!! he is really stupid! He doesn't know how to teach at all.... My old teaacher was far more better thn him.. am million times!

Who uses a old lousy projector when the classroom has a big white board!? Who uses transparency all the time.. n cleaning it.. just to recycle it? Oh my.. and who in the hell teaches english lk teaching maths!? HE DOES!

Not only tat.. he is not creative at all.. wat the other teacher does.. he just follows.. he doesn't even bothers to add in his own style o wat so ever.. maybe the class is big.. but Miss Suba has a class which is as big as this one too.... And miss Suba managers to come up wif her own terrific idea's.. to make the class more interesting...

He's is like SO BORING!!!! N the worst thing about him happened today! A teacher.. making up stories... saying that i n a guy haing problems.... while yeah.. we do talk behind the class.. doesn't everybody? I mean.. everyone will chi chat once the lesson is boring right? So y must he go say such a stupid thing? If he wants to say tat we chat alot.. go ahead.. just say it.. i dun mind hearing "eh.. stop chatting!" rahter thn "i think u have a problem"... and the owrst part is.. i m being drag in to this.. behind my back! HE didn't even bother to say this... in front of me...

Idoit! N this morning when i went up to ask him y m i not inform of this n y m i being involve inthis case.. which has nothing to do with me.. he gave me a stupid ans.. which i didn't even bother to remember.... but the thing which i still couldn't get it out of my head is tat he said:" thn if its not real.. forget wat i said!"

Hello! Guy! U just said it out loud n u r asking me to forget it! Ur stupid man.. how about i say u r a gay n i said forget about it since its not real!!! How much it hurts to hear tat.. he just ruin my ego n rept... n now he his asking me to forget it? No way man!!! That is the worst appology in the world! Can't u just say a simple "sorry"? Oh I know... your're a teacher.. tat's y... yup.. ur a big teacher.. we must respect u! Hello! Guy! U have just done something so stupid n now u wan me to respect u! Forget it...

If one day u die... u'll be in so much pain tat no one would ever want to know.. m i backstabbing him? I dun CARE! He was the one who started it...i will be the one the kill him!!!

Oh ya.. if u (teacher) come across my blg pg.. i dun care weather u r giving me a detention letter o wat so ever... cause my parents know the whole thing.. n they r now backing me up.. so lets us see who has the last laugh now!!!