Ok.. so i might have broken some promises i made to them.. n ok.. so my dad borke his promise to me this morning... but thn.... is it fair?? i mean... its not my fault i m getting so much pressure!
Jan 2, told parents wanted to drop. "Try it out.. it's only the first day"
Feb 4, told parents can't do ipt."its simple.. i'll teach you" (yeah right)
March ??, told parents can't do chemistry and math ex 1. "ask help from teacher... dun worry"
April ??, told parents wanna drop again! "why didn;t you say ealier?? ......."
Ok... tat was over... too over!!! And now.. i m the one who is wrong for blamming them?! GREAT! Shouldn't have got brainwashed by them in the first place... why can;t they just let me go earlier?? The pressure is all coming in.. n know only they want to let me go! I hate this... say somwthing.. n try to correct it... n they think is just tat simple.. GIVE UP!!
Ok.. so tat's only part of it..... the worst part is.. they bought me a dam "good" laptop... ! i "like" it.... Therefore.. i think i'll keep it in a box.. o whoever once it can have it.... it's giving me night mares!!! just because it is better.. . i asume that my dad would like it... n he would give me his old one.. like wat he normally does... so i just installed a few software into the old pc.. n he said the new one was for me..!
ok.. i dun really like the shape of the pc at all... is exactly the same as the old one my friend destroyed! Its heavy..n big... i nothing else...! Ya.. it has nothing else.... (except a great processer n a big memory....) Even my dad doesn;t want that thing! If he likes it.. he'll definately give me his old one.. but thn.. he doesn;t want to give up his old one.. that means he doesn;t like it at all.. there he goes again.. n giving an excuse of "its too big!"
Of cause its big.. tat y he bought it.. n gave it to me... great! I m stuck wif a big laptop... which nearly got me scolded! N its empty.... ok.. he'll find a way to install it.. i dun mind tat.. but thn..there he goes wif his attidute again.. giving stuff that he doesn;t likes.... n know that i wouldn't like either!
He says he doesn't gives me rubbish.. i m not saying he is giving me tat! I m just saying tat.. he is giving stuff tat he doens't likes.. n he know i wouldn't like it either... i just show tat i like it... so that he wouldn't feel bad.. but now.. i can stand it... he has gone over the limit...
Evrything he gives me is old! not one thing is new at all! ok.. maybe i shouldn't be complaining.. but thn... i need to say it out... he gave me a pc.. which is so dam old.. i needed to strain my eyes for three whole weeks before he changed the monitor screen for me... n guess wat... the monitor screen is also dam old... but thn.. at least it is in use.. so i dun mind..
The car he bought.. ok.. it was my idea.. i won complain about the car... speaking about it.. how can he fix the car.. whne he promise me that i could use it the next day! n now.. i can't even drive out at all!!! IDOIT!!!
So many things... haiz.. dun even wanna live in this world anymore.... I dun even know y m i here anymore!!! Its meaningless.. i done even have a goal to live.... i dun even have a life to live!!! DEING to DIE!! Wating for the time to come.. so.. when will it be?? the accident should have killed me off... thinking about the accident... if the pole could just came in futher... i woulnd't mind dieing! Not at all!!!
