What's a meaning of a good friend?? If arguements happens all the time... do you consider your relationship as a ood friend?? or a best friend?? or.. maybe you two are not frineds at all?? I dunno... i m still thinking about this.....
Protecting him.. is like doing more than what i should do... he is just a friend.... a normal best friend... n i m doing so much....
I put friends in front of my family... because frends are the only people who i can really share most of my problems with.. and most of my problems atsrts of with my family.. so how could my family possibly help me out at all?? Friends are the only people who can help out....
I know he's trying to talk some sence into me... I know somethings i done is my fault... But than... my parents are blaming him. N i dun like that... They said i have changed because of him..... he is my friend.. and i dun like that... i dun like my parents talking about my friends...
OK.. so he asks me to fetch him around... he dare's not look at my parents... ok.. maybe he is not a man.. but who dares face my parents?? they are like.... like.... MONSTERS!!!! who in the hell would wanna face them... n add on.. he is a guy!! My girl friends feel scared for the first few months.. meeting my parents.... My parents dun like me hanging out with guys.. so in the hell would have the guts to face them??
But.. thinking about it... m i helping him too much?? do i deserve this?? should i continue to keep everything inside?? n not tell him that most of my problems comes from him?? Or should i tell him?? Tell him out loud?? But would this destroy our friendship?? We argued for so many times and we can get ack together... but once i say this out... i m afraid that he would be gone for good! Our relationship would jsut.. break up!!! its not worth it.. but thn.. i feel so difficult!
Should i just go?? i feel like that.. i feel like going.. leaving everything behind... so manyt things are happening.. n non of those problems are solving! everything is getting worst! i duno... i just feel like leaving... leaving this place n starting of in a new place... I should go... YES! i shoudl find away to leave... n start on over... leaving everything behind....
But thn.. i would lost so many things as well...is it worth it?? throwing all those things behind?? Should i?? SHould i do so?? There's not much time.. only a few days left till make my big decision! should i just leave?? Or continue on??
