Today's exam was't quite good.. CRIED terribly the nitght before. Should i continue on?? o maybe i should drop.. since its giving me so much pressure. I know, its just a small test, but than.... its still a test.... n... i dunno... feel that i shouldn't be taking this up... Wasn't able to finish up every paper.. except for maths and IPT.... too many things to write.... n yet so little time. HAIZ....
N ya... something else happened few days ago... it was thursaday... n i feel... SHOCK! Me and my freinds were just driving out for lunch, when suddenly.. the whole car just flew across the road.. and hit a pole.... my god!!! Just imagine.. the car went up a slope and stoped at an angel of 45 degress in mid air.. So lucky everyone was alrite.
Everyone went into shock mood of cause. I went into shock mood as well, since its my first time being invovled in an accident. But what triggered my shock mood wasn't about how the car flew across the road. Ya, its scary seeing the car flying across the road... everyone said that... but what worried me most was something else. I don't really know weather i should be saying this but... since its my blog.. i'll just say it.
Its terrible, seeing the car just fly pass like that, n too be sitting next to the driver.. what you see is what the driver sees. I was so worried about the driver. The most! just imagine.. u driving.. n your car spun out of control. The person would be most horrified would be the driver! The one with the wheel. He showed no sign of panic. N tried joking about it. Saying many things to clam people down. But deep down inside... i dunno y.... i just senced that there is something else bothering him. His was acting, showing that he was not panicing... but thn.. i felt that he wanted to let something out. HE was deffinately shock! i could see that. He just kept evreything in.
I couldn't be much help at that time... i felt so bad... the only thing i could do is to be by his side.. hoping that he could just show his true emotions in front of me. Its hard trying to keep everything in. But with so many people around.. that was the best way to show. I didn't said much about the accident. Cause the day before that, another friend of mine just got into one. I was just hoping that the next person wouldn't be me....
I was definately able to drive... its just an accident.. it can't be avoided. I didn't even think of how dangerous it would be if i took my car n drove the same road as him. I just rushed back, n took my car out. N drove him everywhere around town.
I m still in shock mood though.. i still think that the next victim would be me. If I got invovled in one.. i wouldn't mind.. if my parents wouldn't BRUSH so much! I m just affraid that... u know.. my freedom would be even more controlled by them! They are already contorlling 40% of it..... i don't want them to control 90% of it!!!! That y.. i m still in a bad mood!!
The car accident:
