New years~ 2010!!

Finally.. its new years eve!!! And wat a week i had!!!

With christmas and weedings... friends and relatives getting together~ i should say this was the warmest week i've felt through out the whole year!

24th dec-

Wq came out... and yup.. we went to TGI! And had wonderfully meal there(with mom of cause).. ate till we all bloted! we came out not even having lunch n breakfast for the next day!!! how full were we!!!

Mini deserts we had..

25th dec-

Woke up.. got ready to watch the chipmunks 2 and.. bad luck... the show was almost SOLD OUT! 5 seats were left for the next 3 shows!!!! no way me n wq were gonna sit in the front row.. n by seeing the que we were in... there was no way we could even get any tickets at all!!!

But the party at nite was FANTASTIC!!! love it!!! with so much food n goodies n little kids to bully... WOW!!!

Yummy yummy!

Presents i received

30th dec-

Met up with qh n mc...n ya.. nai nai .. AGAIN~ Miss qh so so so so SO much... hasn't change alot though.. still the same old her.. we used her camera to take so many photos.. till i forgotten to use my own iphone to snap some memories.. oh well.. still have her birthday coming up next week... big 20.. surely we'll try n make it BIG!

The only person i took with my phone that day... haiz..

Wedding dinner... FOR AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME!! omg!!! finally shark fin soup! n my aunt.. yea crazy her.. force me up stage to sing... n wat the hack.. i was so bord just taking pictures that nite that i went up.. and sang.. as if i were in red box.. singing n singing... n who the hell cares??? LOL! had fun in the end though..

Wedding people..

1st jan 2010-

Went for count down last nite.. the first ever count down i've ever attended!!! with nai nai n jia xian.. 3 of us.. walked all the way to QB from the round about ... (mom's car couldn't get in) and saw power station and Tank singing... I suddenly felt that... i was so OUT DATED! Didn't knew any of the songs that they were singing... how sad... But i did enjoy the countdown and fireworks display.... Pretty short fireworks display if u asked me but hey.. wat the hack..

P.s... the rest of my pics are all on Facebook... HAPPY NEW YEAR!

early christmas for me!!! ^^

that's right.. its finally christmas week!!! YOHOO!!! and guess wat.. i already got 3 gifts!!! MUAHAHAHAHA.. and i love ALL of them! they're fantastic!

mom's gift>>>>

ain't that a beauty??? make up box.. which look just lk wat HANNAH MONTANA HAS!!!! excluding the wheels of cause.. feel in love at first sight! and of cause.. since i don't have that much make up to put in... ended up putting my earings n wrist bands instead.. but who cares??!!! its LOVELY!!!!

dad's gift>>>>

oh ya! finally.. the thing that i'm using right now!!! yeah baby!!! a brand new LAPTOP!!! which actually is able to support my solidworks!!! everything runs so smoothly in here.. LOVE IT!!! muax muax muax!!! ^^ oh ya.. and it finally has a built in web cam as well!!! and..ITS FINALLY READS MY IPHONE!!! something that i've waited for months!!! oh!!!

small ee's gift>>>>

went to dye my hair today.. and ended up.. she gave me this!!!! hair extensions!!!! something i've been planing to buy!!! n she even styled it for me!! and the best thing of all.. its removable!!! so i just need to clip it on when ever i lk!!!! another wonderfull christmas present!!! she really does know wat i want!!! YES BABE!!!

First week back~

one week back home.. yup.. its one weeks already~ wow how fast one week has past by... i really don feel lk knowing my results tmr... T.T its terrifying.. wonder is it out now???!!! its 1.30 am here.. meaning... 4.30 am there!!! omg!!! 

anyway.. this week.. woweee.... wat a busy week!! surprised nai nai one sunday.. yeah.. one day b4 her exam... second last paper... oh wow!!! that's cool!!! monday.. well.. got pulled out by him to inti.. meet karen.. miss her!!! still the same old her.. always busy.. working!! WORKING!!

tuesday, meet up with sabby~ n him.. = =""" headed off to red box.. sang our hearts out and played mahjong at night!!! cool!!! we played till 11pm.. n i got home at 12am... n yea~ got nag.. n nag.. n nag.. n .. u know... 

wednesday, well had nothing to do.. and grandma said she wiped up lunch for me.. so.. headed down for lunch.. went off to pray the milk buddha after that.. and headed off to see my piano teacher.. teacher janice!!!! missed her!!! so so much!! but still forgotten to get back my grade 6 cert... urgh!!! 

thursday... went out.. one whole day!! with nai nai.. n jia xian.. n met up with mc.. n yi lin.. n the rest of them... well they were realyl happy.. of cause they are.. the last day of school.. last day being in pcghs... remember how happy i was during form 5... that feeling.. as if i just walked out of 5 years of prison... congratulation to all of them!! upon finishing form 6.. tough hard form 6.. and best thing.. nai nai got herself a new touch phone!! just lk that!! nokia n95... 3.2mp camera.. wow!!!! way much better thn my iphone man!!! now i really wanna upgrade my iphone.. SOON!!! 

and well friday... wasted one hour at the pos office with dad.. stupid people.. made the wrong date on my roadtax. how can my roadtax not tally with my insurance and get approved??!!! now i have 3 days that i can't drive my car!!!! otherwise i'll have to change my insurance.. which is wat my dad doesn't want me to do!!! OMG!!! 

anyway.. pray hard!!! i wish i pass everything!!! PLS GOD!!! PLS LET ME PASS!!!! 

Finally back home!

Wat a fascinating trip back home!!! But it feels great to be finally back home.. i'm so happy!! 

Headed to the airport at 10pm.. reached at 11 and omg!!! waited at the stupid que for lk .. till 12!!!! one hour!!!! just standing there.. pushing my big beg everywhere!!! anyway.. my beg was overweighted.. lucky they let me through without charging me!!! LOL!!! 

got to kl.. safe n sound.. n ya.. not gonna take air asia again.. the stupid seat is so SMALL!!! n the nasi lemak... is that even call nasi lemak?? haiz.. that's wat u get for cheap rated flights... 8 hours of torcher... 

landed in kl.. n worst thing!! flight got delayed for lk 1 freaking hour!!!! man!!!! but still.. finally reached home save n sound.. remember the wheels of the plane making strange noises during the flight.. how scary was that?? 

anyway.. i'm back home.. that's all that matters.. with quite a few changes here n there but, i'm still happy that some things never change.. ^^ especially my room!! ah!!! hahahaha

Here we go again~

I throw all of your stuff away
I’m gonna clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
And ignore all your messages
I tell everyone we are through
'Cause I'm so much better without you
But it’s just another pretty lie
'Cause I break down
Every time you come around
O Oh O Oh

So how did you get here under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better in trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you
is so addictive
We're falling together
you'd think that by now I'd know
cause here we go go go again

You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Every time that you look at me
You only hear half of what I say
And you're always showing up too late
And I know that I should say goodbye
But it's no use
Can't be with or without you
O Oh O Oh

So how did you get hereunder my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better in trying to let you go
[ Demi Lovato Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] 
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together you’d think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go go again
And again, and again, and again, and again, and again
I threw all of your stuff away
And I cleared you out of my head
And I tore you out of my heart
O oh o oh, o oh o oh

So how did you get here under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better in trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together you'd think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go here we go again
Here we go again 
Should have known better in trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again

Again (and again, and again)
Again (and again, and again)
And again 
And again 
And again 
...

The moment i heard this lyrics.. i knew that it said exactly wat i feel.. i threw everything away.. i told everyone i'm ok... but thn everytime he starts or just even stands infront of him.. i just melt n die down... y is it so hard?!!!??? Doesn't he know how i feel???!!!! i rather him not telling me how much he misses n loved me so i could at least love him under cover... Now.. look at wat u have done! nice going dude! 

Memories~

ya.. so he came over.. i still have more but.. i don i wanna upload them here.. kinda.. reminds me wat i did the day i sent him off to the airport... well he doesn't know that... no one knows wat happened actually... thought kicking him back home.. i would feel free n would be able to focus on my exams, but thn... yeah that's wat he does best doesn't he? destroys my mood for studying... 

felt a sudden feeling of loneliness the day he flew home. didn't knew y, but i actually cried in the shower.. ate lk half the box of ice cream he left back for me and all the chips up... still.. no study mood... 

why is it so hard to fall out of love? the moment i saw him touching down on mel i knew that the feeling would come back all over again... i just lied to myself.. saying.. he's a bastered.. get rid off him.. n whn i finally did... well... everything came back ... lk the moment he told me he didn't want to fall in love right just yet.. the aching in my heart.... 

we all know its not worth it to cry over such nonsense but who could resists the feeling? i used to chase him in college, tried to get rid of him after college, got together in such a far place n now.... how the hell could u get rid of him forever?? just by deleting him off every pg in ur pc doesn't really helps... trying to tell urself that other guys are way much better thn him doesn't helps, try telling urself u are way much better by urself doesn't helps either. 

its abovious i'm trying to get away from him.. as i don even bother to talk to him in msn... i don want that feeling to come back all over again. but just thinking of getting rid of that feeling.. makes u fall back into that dark hole. 

And after reading denise blog.. sometimes.. i wonder y do guys treat us girls so badly... u know we love u with all our heart, we never will go out for some other guy, we just wanna be with u.. that's all... that's all we ask for... for u to notice how much effort we are trying to put to make things work out between us, n u guys come in.. n just one word destroys it all..... 

so is it worth it? to fall in love after all??? or is it just me?? wanting someone to be by my side for all times.. someone who i can really cry onto whn ever i feel lonely or sad... u know.. maybe having 2012 ... the end of the world isn't such a bad idea after all... at least all those  bustards get wash away into the sea!!! 

After test BREAK!!

Tina text me yesterday.. asking me to go out for a movie!! who would reject such an irresistible offer?? 

So we headed off at 2pm.. right after her meeting... and bought tickets for the 5.40 show of 2012. So.. since we had more thn 2 hours of free time in our hands.. we decided to walk around the city,find lunch, thn only head back off for the movie.. 

Tina told me that myers had this christmas window display which was fabulous! A must see.. so we headed of to myers and ... well actually we kinda walk around n around myers just to find that display window... and wow weee!! Just like wat she said!! it was Fabulous! too bad i didn't had a video recorder with me.. put still i manage to take some pics of the display! Cute !!! 

The story featured in the window was "Olivia helps out for christmas!" the whole thing was kinda lk a story book that came to live! a total of 6 windows... with robotics feature of Olivia the pig and her family.. getting ready for christmas. They even had a narrator in it! Exactly as wat u would get on TV! only.. its right infront of u!! in a shop display window!! How cool was that??

for more pics.. u guys can visit my facebook.. i've uploaded the whole story there.. LOL!

after that.. we headed off to find lunch.. and wow.. we accidently stepped into china town! LOL!!! we had thai food for lunch.. tom yum tasted great! just lk wat we have back home! ah.. yes... 

And after that.. we went on window shopping, walked into a choc shop which started selling cute Christmas chocs! felt lk buying some home but the price was too expensive~ maybe i might buy one.. or two home... hmm 

chocolates!! 

Anyway.. about 2012.. GREAT SHOW! effects were AWSOME!!! have u ever seen every great structure of the world collapse?? Awesome show.. and just thinking about me crying nearly every part where one family had to die~ how people gave up their lives for others.. how family is so important.. I should say it was one of the best shows i've ever seen this year!! Touching, yet exciting and funny... 

Nice show!! 

I miss my family~ but anyway.. i'm almost coming home!! WAIT FOR ME GUYS! ^^

EXAMS AND FREEDOM!

So.. didn't study well during the study break.. the weather was hot.. my mood was down.. and.. yeah... was only concentrating on phy... (i hope i pass!!!) 

so.. exams time table was lk.. back to back.. monday tuesday wednesday... STRAIGHT!! no break in between or nothing! so lucky that we were allowed to bring notes in for maths.. and as for chem everything was mcq... for phy?? well first of al.. we got to wait out in the hot sun... and once we were in the exam hall... my goodness.. my place was like right under the aircond or something.. and worst thing was.. almost every question was exactly the same as the book had!!! i was so happy during reading time!!! thinking.. yeah.. i should be able to solve all!!.. n thn... SHITzzz!!! i can't!!!! ARGH!! wat the hell is wrong with my brain??!!!! 

so now.. since everything is over.. i m just hopping to pass.. no C no D or HD.. just P!!!! pls let me get a P!!! 

So.. going to fly home on the 5th of dec.. wonder if there's any surprise waiting for me?? LOL!!! I miss u guys so MUCH!!!! i really do!!! wait for me guys!! i'm coming home!!! 

Visitor in mel~

Alrite, so its kinda long since my last update... and well quite a lot of things happened during this time.... rite thn... i'll try putting it all into one blog~  

First of all, someone dropped by melbourne before returning home to penang. yeah its HIM~ needed to leave tassie earlier as his grandma was sick and so dropped by melbourne for about 5 days before leaving home.. 

4/11 (wed) 

Night time, me... not knowing how to get to the airport by bus, and HE.. not wanting to come here alone by taxi.... so ended up, i pulled my friend out with me... we took the bus to the airport as a taxi would cost lk aud75.... EXPENSIVE MAN!!! so we picked him up... and..... well did stupid stuff like changing trains.. walking here and there.. taking him on his first sight of MEL b4 heading home. and guys.. i had class the next morning... so.. haiz..

5/11 (thurs)

Didn't sleep well as i SACRIFICED my pillow for him to sleep on.. (at least he slept on the floor) so by the time he woke me up.. it was 10am. N hell ya.. i missed one lect@@ anyway.. got up, got dressed, and kicked him off to my friend as i went off to my last lect of chem... a boring lect indeed... lucky kylyn was accompanying me through sms.. 

After the lect, we went out to the city to have lunch. And My friend.. well he didn't know the way to china town.. so we nearly got lost, and ate in a very unsatisfying chinese restaurant. Food looked good.. but tasted bad. Anyway.. after that .. we walked around the city, till my legs nearly fell out as i was wearing heels that day, and by the time we got home.. it was.... 5pm!!!! so we got home.. he wiped up a sandwich for me as dinner and we went down to my friends room to watch a movie... and... HE FORCED MY TO DRINK CHAMPAGNE! on a night where i had a 8.30am class the next morning!!! i nearly died that nite.. whole face blotted up lk a balloon!! 

6/11(fri)

hell yea.. skipped my lect..one reason was the drink and another was for the internet.. stupid internet!! i just wanted to renew my account and pop!! it came charging me with 2!!  went for the tutorial instead.. felt so sorry for john as i missed is lect so many times!! including this last one!!! so rushed of for tut... and well.. xiao jin n i wanted to know where the exam venue (FESTIVE HALL) was.. so we begged nic to take us out. He... not ans my phone or sms... so i thought he was out having fun with my other friend.. and well.. nearly towards the end of my lect, he called me.. asking me not to go.. = ="" wel i had no choice but to ask him to follow us to festive hall ... have a sight seeing of the place.. 

we didn't exactly found the location, but we found the road.. and on the way back.. he wanted to go to the musuem!! now who the hell put that idea in his head??!!! anyway.. cause me n nic wanted to watch a movie from teh very begining.. we headed off to mel central.. n jin.. well she left for home after that.. (had bbq party) ... we reached mel central.. n bad thing.. all shows started at 9pm.. n nic.. he wanted to be back home at that time.. so.. no movie.. 

instead.. i took him walking around prahan .... and after that. we had dinner at home.. (petaling st) man was i tired!!! 

7/11(sat) 

he really wanted to go to the museum!! wat was i suppose to do?? anyway.. i mapped my way there and yeah, took him to the museum~ he was so happy there... i think.. just taking pics and... to my surprise.. they had a section on just HUMANS!!! yeah.. teaches u about the human body and parts and muscles anda section where u can't take photos!!!! EXACTLY!! they even have a SEX EDUCATION section!! with videos of a women give birth!!! oh well.. we did had fun.. walked till the museum closed.. and did i say the whole thing was FOC??!! LOL!! 

8/11(sun) 

Hot sunny day.. com'on its a sunday.. where would u wanna go?? there's no where to go on a sunday now is there??? so we just stayed home.. doing laundry.. and HE~ couldn't stand the heat so wat happened was he went off buying a table fan for me!!! and ice cream as well!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!! 

9/11 (mon)

woke up at 5.30am... just to get ready to send him off to the airport.. thank god it was my study break!!! sent him off... and.. well yeah. i had to come home to study but thn... i was so sleepy!!! i slept the whole day instead... @@ 

Someone's coming!!

WOW... long time nothing has happen to me right?? well of cause.. being a free bird... what's there to complain about??? ^^ 

anyway.. one person's dropping by soon~ who u ask??? well.. all i can say is SOME ONE!! yeah~ terrible terrible terrible.. how can some one drop by to visit n expect to have fun whn i have so much to handle???!! esspecially whn all my test are coming soon???!!! n whn i have a feeling i will actually fail EVERYTHING??!!!! shit!! i hate this man..... 

never see good luck coming from that person.. is always bad luck.. well guess wat.. since i'm so busy.. is either he follow me go busy around.. or stuck get lock up in my room... YEAH!! that's such a nice plan don u think???? MUAX TO ME!! HOW I LOVE MYSELF!! = ="""" 

New hair cut~

LOL!! yeah.. got a new one... haha.. my mom's gonna freak out if she sees this new hair do....  went to cut it yesterday.. right after that HORRIBLE maths test... believe it o not.. 20 obj questions.. i could only solve like 3!!! n that's it! Wonder how the hell m i gonna pass this test.. haiz..

anyway.. to start of a new life... a new hairdo shall do the trick.. yeah.. tore him right out of my heart n head.. so.. BYE~  

man i kinda hate this guy.. he needs something thn he comes fiding me. other thn that.. he's so BUSY!! what the hell does he think i m?? his maid?? well anyway.. he broke his glasses.. n all of his contact lens... AND I M FREAKIN HAPPY!!!! hope he can't see a bloody thing during his test.... ya~ sure i'll find for him... after my major test on nov... good luck guy!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

that's what u get whn u became dead in my heart.. ah.. i feel so free right now... ah~ 

Will be posting up my new hairdo on fb n here soon! don miss it! ^^ 

till the decision is made.

14 days since he told me... that he wanted to be a free bird.... that he wanted to focus on his business.. that we are just normal friends... 

i put my heart into him since the day he told me he liked me.. since the day he told me to be strong... since the day he told me to wait... should i?? go on waiting.. or just give up??? 

does he even care about what i think right now? does he even know how i feel right now? being just friends.. when he doesn't even talks to me.. being just friends.. when he doesn't even ask me how i really feel... being just friends.. whn i can't say how i feel... what i feel... are we really still friends? 

u made the deicsion of bringing us together. n now.. u say u have no time in this n just throw me aside.. what ever i do i think of u.. n u treat me like this... throwing me aside.. cause i just feel jealous of one girl.. cuase u are so busy that u don want to even look at me... cause.... 

i still love u.. deeply inside.. but because of us business.. because of ur dream.. i can't say a word to u.. of how i feel right now.. because of u.. i tired making myself doing stuff... running up n down... just to forget that u r there.. but no matter what i do.. u are still in my mind.. floating around... no matter what songs i listen to.. what places i go to.. what things i read... what movies i watch... u must be in there. floating, dancing, playing around... 

i feel so stupid.... of even accepting u in the first place.. now.. all i feel is that u treat me as those garbage girls! u throw me aside... cause i can't help u! u... U DON EVEN KNOW HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW!!! AND WORST!! U DON EVEN BOTHER COMFORTING ME!!! DON BOTHER TRYING TO GIVES WAYS TO FORGET U! NO... U STILL POP UP.. CHAT WITH ME.. TELLINGME UR PROBLEMS.. N WHN EVERYTHINGS SOLVED U JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! WHAT DO U THINK I M??!!! 

U NEVER FELT HOW I FELT! N U SAY THA I NEVER KNOW HOW U FEEL!!! 

2 more days... just 2 more days till i make my decision.... if u feel this.. tell me... should i go on waiting for u... i'm giving u two more days... and that's it.. i m making my next move.. i don wanna go on like this forever... i m killing myself everytime i stare at the mirror.. walking alone to class.. i m sick... very sick... n in 2 days if  u make the next move i will... just 2 days for u... feel it.. or that's it.... if god wants us to be together.. god would have sent this msg to ur heart.. 

remember.. just 2 more days..... 31st august.. till the truth reveals... 

苦茶

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼
街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨
没什么能做但我比谁都真诚
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种很可爱的独特
让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你
在那之前想对你说我愿意
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你
在那之后你点头说我愿意
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道你也有一种很可爱的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

虽然永远太不可能
少了你的完整
两个对的人奇迹就能发生

这一刻只想把你
抱紧

我就这么觉得~一只到现在。。。。但你永远都不会知道。。。。 我心里的空洞。。。。 不是因为你那句话，那个拥抱，那份礼物，那个举动，我也不会调入到你陷阱。。。。 对不起，我还是喜欢你。 太深的喜欢你。。。 

Swinburne's Open Day

Alrite... open day~ Kay po me went out to help of cause.. and..COOL!! 

Saw many works done of by the seniors.. and even worked with some of the seniors.. which was so cool... knowing what to expect for the years to come... So my shift started at 1pm and so i got there... or to say walked there.. in the rain.. yeah it was raining.. how awful.. that y i couldn't take any picture of open day at all!! so went in.. n answered some question about the corse.. telling people how the corse is... n well.. one stupid question came up was that "how long does it take to design a project?" = =""" how they hack we know?! even the lectures were laughing at the question... GOSH!!! 

And yet the electronics lab was so much fun.. all we PDE students could do was stand there n watch the people playing ARI HOCKEY with the Electronic arm controled by the pc.. SO COOL!!! awww... 

Well anyway.. had fun... n stoled some work (by photo) of the seniors... n YEAH!! got a free t-shirt.. so.. 3 hours of talking n answering questions... worth it! Yes m i going back to help out next year... ^^ CHEARS TO PDE! ^^ 

Tracing shadow...

NICE MAN!!!!!!!! althought the theme was kinda stupid but.. still.... WATCH TI FOR LAUGHS!!! LOL!!!!!! can't belive they found so many jacky chan n jay chou for the show.. LOL!!

I believe the best thing about this show is that the kung fu skills are so great!!!! plus on the comedy makes it... A FIRST TIME!! fighting comedy.. LOL!!!

And don simply steal people's chicken for nothing!! “他妈的”！ LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Birthday present~

See this?? ugly?? ya kinda.. have to admit the colour is sooooo..... haiz.. anyway.. i still send it to him though.. see what he's gonna do with it... 

luckily... i got back up.. was walking in DFO last week n guess what i found?! 

TADA!!!!!!!!!! yer.. hudson somemore.. haiz.. T.T wonder what will be going through his mind when he finds out.. LOL!! ^^ 

stupid me!

本来好像等到你生日那天，寄信封给你，告诉你这些， 但我还是。。。。。。还是决定你生日那天别读这些比较好。怕会给干扰道你的心情。毕竟，都变了19 岁。不容易。。。

认识你，有一年多的时间了吧。老实说，我从来没被一个男人搞得我团团转。但也没办法，谁叫我对你的感情呢么的深。 还给星座老师说中， 一旦狮子座的女孩已掉入了爱情的陷阱，她会用全心全意，付出所有的在这感情上。看你多倒霉，给一个狮子座女孩爱上你。

咳。。。好啦，告诉你啦，哪罐 “醋”还吃不完啦！神经病是不是？我也知道啊。。。 但叫我怎么办啊？ 你说想认识多一点朋友，收集垃圾桶。我也没反对。可是，当一个女人，看到另一个女人在她心目中的男生，对那个男人说“sweetheart” 的时候， 那第一个女人该做什么？是不是我想太多？希望是吧。因该是吧。

回到这儿，没有你的日子，告诉自己，必须坚强。坚强的等下去。心理，只能默默的享受，回忆那天，那温暖的拥抱，那温暖的安慰。你说你从来没这样抱过任何人，我也从来，没被人那样抱过。想起来，好温暖，好舒服。好想再哭。。。希望有人能够这样的安慰我。保护我。自从来到这儿，就从来没有感觉到，什么是温暖，什么是关心。想出去走一走，也不自该找谁来陪我。第一次，身边的朋友，只有几位。说更要好的朋友，就一个也没有。感觉来到这里，好像被人利用多了。但也没办法。 原本想来都这儿开始新生活，结果。。。 还是办不到。

我。。。 可不想当那些一天到晚询问男朋友的消息的那些女人，也不想当一天到晚控制着你生活女人。但，不这么做。。。 又没有安全感。默默的沉在心里不说， 又好像一个什么都不管女朋友。所实话，我们，到底，是不是真正的男女朋友？ “我们还年轻，不噢你干的什么是爱情”。对这是你所过的，但。。。。。 是我多情，还是什么。。。。 为什么。。。。 我中有一种放不下你的感觉？每一分每一秒，第一个想到的就是你。想买最棒的生日礼物送给你。我到底是真么了？是疯了吗？还是。。。 这才是爱？我也不知道。。。

说来说去，我还是错的人，竟然对你吃醋。不想别的女人靠近你。但我又不想控制着你交朋友的圈子。吞下这一切，又想要吐出来的感觉。越想越觉得自己好没用，好笨。什么都做不到。像诉苦，但又不知该找谁。知道你最进烦恼多，但又不只能做什么。好没用。对不起。。。。 我真的很没用。不知到该做什么。想帮又帮不了。自己有烦恼是又只会 找你。想相信，你所说过的一切，但自己又没信心。想相信你和他只是普通的朋友，她有男友，却又做不到。I’M SORRY!!! 对不起！！！！！ 读完后请被生气。 对不起！

See?? this is wat i wrote to him... just wanna keep it.. i've never written something lk this in my life! y must love be so COMPLICATED????!!!!! 

almost ending

Try staying up till 7am n this is wat u get>>>

So one more week of hol... and classes gonna start soon!!! haiz... feel lk my boring days are ending... no more sleeping at 7am... T.T

Birthday~

At least i got things cleared (not really) with him... well finally my birthday came n... well wat to expect.. being so lonely out here in aus. Where all the people who u love are so far away from u.. 

So. woke up kinda... early.. cause was thinking of going shopping at first.. but thn.. haiz.. i'm so BROKE!! so ended up just watching "hei she hui mei mei" all day... Happy to say that alot of my friends wished my happy birthday through sms, msn n facebook.. which was something that at least lift my mood up. I still remember me counting down... seeing who would be the first one to wish me... n "ding dong ding dong" KYLYN!!!!!!! the first one to wish ms happy birthday through sms!! COOL.. thn came him.. who played around.. n some other friends as well.... 

Qh wished me a very early birthday as she had a test on my birthday.. hope she does well... n as for wq.. congratulations!! the very first time she forgotten about time n wished my happy bithday 2 hours later (which is 4 hours later aussie time).... aaaaa... yes.... how fun was it to punish her n asking her to buy me a cake from pet society.. LOL

And thanks nic for the lovely dinner... at the thai restaurant.. i don think he ows me any more money after last nites dinner though.. oh well.. n thanks for the cake as well!! lovely cheese cake.. hmmm.... with doh wei n alex helping me sing the birthday song... anyway.. nice cheese cake... (man i fell hungry) 

So now.. i got nai nai's card.. with a "sweat" letter.... speachless just to read it.. but thanks... n to Marry n Lorna.. thanks for the gift card.. now to find my way to the shop n spend it! YOHOOO!!! so... whn is my handbag gonna arrive mommy??!! haiz.. 

oh ya.... n my dad.. sms me one day later.. which was this morning to wish me a happy birthday..or was it.. oh ya.. 12am in the morning... great! anyway.. thankss... 

A simple birthday... haiz.. now i wish i was home... T.T

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!! 

Does it REALLY matter?!

Great.. just found out he cahnge his status to LIKING SOMEONE GIRL HE USED TO PLAY AROUND IN FB!!!!!!!!!!!! 

so.. is this something he has done to shut the girl up??!!!!!!! or is he really falling into that girl?! GIVE ME AN ANS RIGHT NOW!!!!! I WANT AN ANS NOW!!!!!!! Y PUT UR STUPID RELATIONSHIP WITH HER? WAT'S WRONG OF PUTTING A  REALATION SHIP WITH ME THN? I DON CHAGNE CAUSE I KNOW U WANNA FLIRT AROUND.. BUT U PUTTING OTHER PEOPLE'S NAME INSTEAD OF MINE!? N NOT TELLING ME?! WAT M I?! U'RE MAID?! 

i feel lk.. crying... n hitting him.. n... I DONNO!!!!!!! IDIOT! 

Early Present..

one more week... just one more week n.. haiz.. OLD D LA!!!!!!!!!!! T.T finally.. reaching the age tat i never thought it would come so FAST!!! 

next week... 7 more days.. n i'm 19... feel so OLD!!!!! but yet again.. everyone will grow old... n which means.. a few more years left for me to reach my goal.. 

Not expecting anything speacial this year... as.. 19 is not a nice age to celebrate someone's birthday at all! I dono.. people say its "pantang" or bad luck to have a big party, n.. haiz.. me here in aus... of cause i don really expect much. 

Anyway.. i got my early present from him.. yeah... SO CUTE!!!!!!!!! n LOVE IT! one thing.. only its quite.. well.. kinda lose for me to wear... but its the nicest thing i've got this year! LOVE HIM!! seems to him he knows wat i lk.. or maybe my taste kinda sucks? hmm... 

THANK YOU SO MUCH! XOXO~ <3>

THANK YOU AGAIN! XOXO~

If-from Nai Nai~

If

If I had a palne,
I would fly to Taiwan and meet you,
but do i have a plane.....NO,
so, I can't even visit you.


If i was an angle,
I would protect you every second of the day,
but am I an angle....NO,
so what i can do know is only pray.


If my hometown had volcanoes that burst into flames,
I would forget you since I am dead,
but do we have volcanoes here.....NO,
so I have to think of you every single day.


If one day the world had come to an end,
will you be in love with me?
May be yes, may be no but i'll love forever,
so you'll never ever ever go.


If you loved me,
I'll be your only lover in this world,
but will you love me.......NO,
so I won't be your lover at all!


And if this "if"s were to come true,
I believe that we will be together ,
And be the best couple forever.
If....... if........

JEAN

Oh well... found this in one of the "sub"blogs i used to have..No means of stealing it. Anyway.. i deleted this blog since nai nai had her own one.. and this blog only had two post in it.... Free feel to take it back nai nai!!!!! XD

Harry potter new movie ^^

Harry Potter and the half blood prince premired yesterday, and i went n watch it today! YEAH!

So, me n nic (xiao 747 us) set out at 11.30am 0.0""" yeah.. i slept at 4am.. n i woke up at 9.30.. actually 9am.. don ask y.. i just woke up... n wow... head was thinking of only one think... "TOM FELTON!!!!!!!!!!" come on.. he's HOT! amongall the other guys in the show of cause... 

so.. we set out.. n of cause.. i pulled him to go shopping first! cause the movie starts at 3pm... so.. went to dfo... n WOW!!! yeah all the clothes were on sale... n after 50% discount.. guess wat.. it still cost 40AUD!!!! n above!!!!!!! n the ones that i hate.. well its on sale alright.. 19.50aud.. = ="" guess my taste is kinda HIGH CLASS after all... LOL

so.. since dfo was SO expensive.. we headed back to Melburne Central.. n YAHOO!!!!!! one shop which sells almost every clothe at 50% off... so cool! went in.. n spent 30aud just lk that.. of cause i charge that to my debit card. Other wise my dad would nag me again! 

We walk.. n walk.. n YEAH!!!!!!! 3pm!!!!!!!!!!!! so we went into the cinema hall... n wow! my my.. was it bigger thn the hall we use to watch transformers... COOL!! 

Comments about HP? :

->The book's way much more better thn the show... of cause.. with so many cuts in the show... But wat to do.. u can't flim such a thick book in 2.30 hours time can ya? 

-> Speacial effects n sound effects.. BRILLIANT! love it!

->Tom felton... such a hottie.. n best part.. he almost appears every 5 min of the show!! He really got to act to much more compared to the last show! HOTTIE HOT HOT!

->Sad ending.. DAMN SAD! to see dumbledore die.. n everyone gathering around.. crying... holding their wands up to sellout him for his courage n death... The best Principle of any School.

->Romance... not that good.. Gossip GIrl romance is way much better thn this.. looks lk... kids romance.. can't believe the characters are all 16 yrs old.. = =

-> N for professor Snape.. well... just say i can't wait for the last show!!! To see him sacrificed n all.. WOOO!!

For now.. i'm just hoppig the last show would bring everyone into tears... n to see tom felton playing the baddie for one last round... 

Harry potter

Draco Malfoy(YOO MAN)

Ron Wesley(quite funny in the show)

Harry and Dumbledore 

Draco and Snape

Hermoine with Slughorn(new potion professor) 

BTW, these photos aren't min. Took these pictures from the net.. kinda interesting just seeingthese photos huh? LOL...  

Lonesome~ <3

Everyone feels lonely~ having no close friends around them.. Since i came here.. my objective was to just pass uni.. n get back home.. is not that life her is boring.. i mean.. i have friends and all. I go out.. shopping, watch movies and have fun. But it still doesn't feel quite right. 

Friends : Are just people, who i spend time with. To let my time pass by. So i know.. my days of reaching home, is coming closer each n everyday. So tat i don't feel that i'm stuck in a corner, not being able to do anything.

Close friends: Backbone. Heart. And the life in me. I know, that a close friend, will not share their problems... cause they know if they do so... the other will not feel good as well.. is till only the problem becomes so big till they themselves can't even handle it.. thn only they'll come to u.. n speak to u... 

They care about how u feel first before themselves. They don just come running to u.. complaining every single problem they have. May sound strange but.. that is true.. Keep everything to themselves... to make sure that they don't bring u their troubles.. Although i hate this but, is what all true friends do.. to be by your side.. n make sure that u r happy.. all the time.... that y i love u.. to see u being able to do that.. keep everything.. make sure that i don't feel the bad things of u.. n only ur joy... i miss u T.T

N honestly.. i have no idea how strong m i... i go out.. wearing a mask every single day.. come home.. go to bed.. n just dream of u... 

SERIOUSLY! who could u dream of someone for 3 nights in a row?! Stay strong... how strong?! maybe that's the real reason y the stone exits in my heart.. or is there something else? LONESOME~ 

tassie~ will never forget

went to tas for hols on father's day, so.. of cause, sms my dad to wish him a happy father's day. n thn... excitedly headed off to tasmania! where i got to meet my newly became bf.. hehe~

day 1

left for tassie. excited.. man, i only slept for lk 2 hours the nite b4. first reason was because of the stupid party the people had the nite b4. can u belive it?! the party ended at lk 3am! n i woke up at 6am! just to do my laundry!!!!! while second reason was that.. i watched gossip girl till lk... wow! 

so, left so tassie at around 12pm. touched ground at 1 pm plus, had mcd for lunch and thn.. we headed for port author! n cause of the 2 hours sleep i had the nite b4.. my my wat a terrible car trip i had. Threw up at blow hole.. well at least i didn't threw up into the "blow hole"! so.. saw some waves, beach n caves.. n we haded for our cabin. n WOW! wat a BEAUTY that cabin was! 1st class rating from me! but terribly~ NO LINE!!!!!!!! how the hell was i surpose to call she hong?! 

day 2

so, stared pur journey at 7am! wow.. amazingly i manages to wake up at 6am! without n alarm clock! or was it the people walking in n out? hmm.. anyway.. we went of to port author, to see how the prisoners lived there. n WOW! that was so cool! even the story there was so cool! how to people died n all... even the grave yard was in the middle of the sea! on an island! cool! n thn.. excitedly.. we headed for horbart city! where... MY LINE CAME BACK! YES OPTUS! YOHOO! 

visited choclate Chaboury factory.. n everything was on SALE! YEAH! bought lk 6 choc bars back.. (n i ate two down d.. so.. hehe) managed to call she hong.. n manage to arranged dinner with him.. 

nite came. n .. wow.. everyone's teasing me in the car... T.T unbelivable.. waited.. n HE SHOWED UP! man.. we had a friendly hug.. n thn.. wow.. couple hug! holding hands.. he even treated me for dinner! LOVELY! n some friends i have.. threw me off with him n went off to the casino.. HMPH

he had some stuff to do.. so ended up.. he sent me to the casino.. n  b4 he left... "i'm not sure weather this is the right feeling for me, i mean, i lk u but.."  n of cause.. water works started.. n i cry.. n he hugged me.. *in front of all the old aunties!* 

hours later.. man.. we got stuck outside our new cabin.. cause the owner didn't left us the key! so.. i of caused.. tried to be happy.. n.. haiz.. finally went in, n of cause.. went of to charge my dead phone. n wat a surprise.. he called me by alex's phone! n wow.. 10 sms from him! 4 miss calls n 3 voice mails! n that was the moment.. he said he loved me.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! 

Pretending to be prisioners.. T.T

Cadbory choclate factory!

day 3

so.. visited some places.. scenery.. boring~ whole morning was thinking about him.. n wat he said to me.. didn't really enjoyed the whole morning trip.. was just waiting to see him one last time b4 he headed off to launchester. nite came.. n.. of cause.. i went to his house.. visited him. 

how sweet of him to make coffee for me.. n gave me a leather jacket! n aww... too sweet! after that.. torcher came.. walked off to the bbq party.. which was lk.. UP!!!! stairs everywhere.. small MOUNTAIN! man... n i had to climb 7 feet up n down while visiting a cave! 

finally reach the bbq spot... n had fun with him.. n wow.. he saw my mood went down.. yea.. it did... was thinking that i'll not be able to do this till end of the year.. n he's heading off to taiwan, n.... T.T ok.. i'm crying now.. lk that day! T.T

his hug was so warm n tight. i wished he never let go...  telling me to be straong.. n wait till the right time comes.. now i know how hard it is to have LDR.. T.T really miss him since that day.. my feelings to him... are too deep! wat m i surpose to do!? 

anyway.. had to get back home.. n wow... he kissed me b4 sending me off.. how sweet of him to do so... man i really miss him! 

Cave seeing

He's cup of coffee with mine..

My night to remember <3

day4

nothing to much to talk about.. just seeing scenery n stuff.... oh ya.. n headed to launchester.. T.T

day 5

last day in tas... looking out from the plane window hurts alot.. is lk... we've been close.. last year.. n never apprecieated it.. 2 days.. those 2 short nites made me realise how much feelings i've putten on this guy.. T.T i don think i wanna talk about it.. it hurts.. 

well.. that's about it.. my tas trip... LOVE YOU FOREVER! i hope u feel the same.... 

my present to u.. = =. ok this is lame.. = =

每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友... ♥ T.T

每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友... ♥

但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。

也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。

也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。

也许你们相遇太早，

还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，

你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟,

对方已不再等待

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，

而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，

你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，

你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，

你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人，

你口头上会帮他追，

心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，

你会尽你所能的帮他，

不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，

你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，

但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，

心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，

很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，

但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他，

总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做他的朋友，

彼此不会吃醋，

才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，

你还是知道，

他永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，

当他那个特别的朋友，

有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，

都因为一厢情愿，

最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，

可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，

如果你没有反应，

这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，

这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，

表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，

要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，

或许对方不在意，

你们还可以是朋友，

但却已经不如从前的好.

希望你们能珍惜身边的人，
可能在这一刻你们不觉得他/她是你生命中最重要的人...
一旦他/她已离你身边而去时，才发觉...
一切都太迟了....♫♪

okok... i stole this from qiao hui's blog.. but it really said out so much about how i felt... !!! 

it's really lk gambling... once said.. it's either love forever.. or its all over! told him b4.. but in such an "stupid" way. I mean.. is lk telling him i love him.. but not to get close to me! 

qiao hui! where the hell did u get this?!!! I really wanna keep this forever!!!