Exams, Again II

Yup.. just one month time and exam's are coming... again! Oh god! Should have stop HSC when i had the chance.... Shouldn't have continued on... Its so tiring~ I hope i can get more thn a band 4 for chem and phy. I just hope that i can pass my math ex... no need... all i just need is 30 marks this time. I m not asking much. Just 30 and above would be enough. Yea....

A true friend~ You're here to the end~ Hope you are. I don't even know why must we hurt each other everytime. I don't think i can go on any longger. Its.. its... so tiring.... u say u have ur pressure. I have pressure as well. I don't even know how to go on. I don't even know how can i face you. Wearing a mask is so tiring. U know that. U know how tiring it is to wear one. I m wearing one. In front of you. I can't be myself.. i don't know y.. ut i just can't be myself. Its too tiring to go on!

Is this what we call.. i dunno. We must argue with each other all the time.... And hurt each other feelings. Is this the true meaning of a friend?? A true friend?? Maybe we are abble to show each other our feelings. Or maybe we just think alike at times... Just maybe... Haiz~

Stupid~ Mother's Day

Did a stupid thing yesterday.... really really really... dum!

So.. went to his house.. took out a camera... n flimed like for nearly 3 hours?? n it looks quite.. cute n stupid! N yeah.. he post it up on u tube.. which i hope no one really goes finds out who i m.. esspeacially my mom's friends! i will die!!!

But that's not the funny part at all. This morning... my mom thinks that i've done something in his house..n we flimed some so called "porno" video at his place! LOL.... stupid.... wat a creative mom i have!!! yea.. dam creative!!

Oh ya... today is mothers day.... hope she... haiz.. just dun kill me la! i really hoped that there was a celebration at my mom sides... so sad... can't meet any of my cousins tonite. Stuck at home.. with MOM!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!

~The secreat~

I m going na be happy... i am going na follow my dreams.... Yes! I want to be what ever i want to be... That's the secreat i just found out.

The documentry show "THE SECREAT" has tought me alot today. My mom has the book but, i don't read. Lucky there's a dvd. And i learned so much! Why be mad... why be worry.... And now, my pressure's going away.

I want to be famous. Of cause. I want to sit in front of the tv, seeing other people loving me. Looking at me. My main dream! Yes. I wish that my dreams comes true! I really want that dream to come true.

I also want him to stay. To be my friend. To love me.... Man, i hope he doesn't read this! But WHO CARES! I want to tell him i like him. But if he says it first. Yes, no matter what happens. I want him to be happy. Not mad. I want him to smile. N not have so much trouble. To share most of his troubles with me. To tell me everything! I want that. I really want that!

I want... i want.... I just want it! Yes~ this feeling is so good! I finally feel better. I want my chem teacher to leave me alone. TO not ask me so much questions. To give me less pressure. No. I want her to like me. To care for me. I want... I want her to smile at me all the time. No matter what i do.

I want... i want.... i want.... i want to master~ the law of attraction!