till the decision is made.

14 days since he told me... that he wanted to be a free bird.... that he wanted to focus on his business.. that we are just normal friends... 

i put my heart into him since the day he told me he liked me.. since the day he told me to be strong... since the day he told me to wait... should i?? go on waiting.. or just give up??? 

does he even care about what i think right now? does he even know how i feel right now? being just friends.. when he doesn't even talks to me.. being just friends.. when he doesn't even ask me how i really feel... being just friends.. whn i can't say how i feel... what i feel... are we really still friends? 

u made the deicsion of bringing us together. n now.. u say u have no time in this n just throw me aside.. what ever i do i think of u.. n u treat me like this... throwing me aside.. cause i just feel jealous of one girl.. cuase u are so busy that u don want to even look at me... cause.... 

i still love u.. deeply inside.. but because of us business.. because of ur dream.. i can't say a word to u.. of how i feel right now.. because of u.. i tired making myself doing stuff... running up n down... just to forget that u r there.. but no matter what i do.. u are still in my mind.. floating around... no matter what songs i listen to.. what places i go to.. what things i read... what movies i watch... u must be in there. floating, dancing, playing around... 

i feel so stupid.... of even accepting u in the first place.. now.. all i feel is that u treat me as those garbage girls! u throw me aside... cause i can't help u! u... U DON EVEN KNOW HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW!!! AND WORST!! U DON EVEN BOTHER COMFORTING ME!!! DON BOTHER TRYING TO GIVES WAYS TO FORGET U! NO... U STILL POP UP.. CHAT WITH ME.. TELLINGME UR PROBLEMS.. N WHN EVERYTHINGS SOLVED U JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! WHAT DO U THINK I M??!!! 

U NEVER FELT HOW I FELT! N U SAY THA I NEVER KNOW HOW U FEEL!!! 

2 more days... just 2 more days till i make my decision.... if u feel this.. tell me... should i go on waiting for u... i'm giving u two more days... and that's it.. i m making my next move.. i don wanna go on like this forever... i m killing myself everytime i stare at the mirror.. walking alone to class.. i m sick... very sick... n in 2 days if  u make the next move i will... just 2 days for u... feel it.. or that's it.... if god wants us to be together.. god would have sent this msg to ur heart.. 

remember.. just 2 more days..... 31st august.. till the truth reveals... 

苦茶

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼
街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨
没什么能做但我比谁都真诚
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种很可爱的独特
让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你
在那之前想对你说我愿意
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你
在那之后你点头说我愿意
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道你也有一种很可爱的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

虽然永远太不可能
少了你的完整
两个对的人奇迹就能发生

这一刻只想把你
抱紧

我就这么觉得~一只到现在。。。。但你永远都不会知道。。。。 我心里的空洞。。。。 不是因为你那句话，那个拥抱，那份礼物，那个举动，我也不会调入到你陷阱。。。。 对不起，我还是喜欢你。 太深的喜欢你。。。 

Swinburne's Open Day

Alrite... open day~ Kay po me went out to help of cause.. and..COOL!! 

Saw many works done of by the seniors.. and even worked with some of the seniors.. which was so cool... knowing what to expect for the years to come... So my shift started at 1pm and so i got there... or to say walked there.. in the rain.. yeah it was raining.. how awful.. that y i couldn't take any picture of open day at all!! so went in.. n answered some question about the corse.. telling people how the corse is... n well.. one stupid question came up was that "how long does it take to design a project?" = =""" how they hack we know?! even the lectures were laughing at the question... GOSH!!! 

And yet the electronics lab was so much fun.. all we PDE students could do was stand there n watch the people playing ARI HOCKEY with the Electronic arm controled by the pc.. SO COOL!!! awww... 

Well anyway.. had fun... n stoled some work (by photo) of the seniors... n YEAH!! got a free t-shirt.. so.. 3 hours of talking n answering questions... worth it! Yes m i going back to help out next year... ^^ CHEARS TO PDE! ^^ 

Tracing shadow...

NICE MAN!!!!!!!! althought the theme was kinda stupid but.. still.... WATCH TI FOR LAUGHS!!! LOL!!!!!! can't belive they found so many jacky chan n jay chou for the show.. LOL!!

I believe the best thing about this show is that the kung fu skills are so great!!!! plus on the comedy makes it... A FIRST TIME!! fighting comedy.. LOL!!!

And don simply steal people's chicken for nothing!! “他妈的”！ LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Birthday present~

See this?? ugly?? ya kinda.. have to admit the colour is sooooo..... haiz.. anyway.. i still send it to him though.. see what he's gonna do with it... 

luckily... i got back up.. was walking in DFO last week n guess what i found?! 

TADA!!!!!!!!!! yer.. hudson somemore.. haiz.. T.T wonder what will be going through his mind when he finds out.. LOL!! ^^ 

stupid me!

本来好像等到你生日那天，寄信封给你，告诉你这些， 但我还是。。。。。。还是决定你生日那天别读这些比较好。怕会给干扰道你的心情。毕竟，都变了19 岁。不容易。。。

认识你，有一年多的时间了吧。老实说，我从来没被一个男人搞得我团团转。但也没办法，谁叫我对你的感情呢么的深。 还给星座老师说中， 一旦狮子座的女孩已掉入了爱情的陷阱，她会用全心全意，付出所有的在这感情上。看你多倒霉，给一个狮子座女孩爱上你。

咳。。。好啦，告诉你啦，哪罐 “醋”还吃不完啦！神经病是不是？我也知道啊。。。 但叫我怎么办啊？ 你说想认识多一点朋友，收集垃圾桶。我也没反对。可是，当一个女人，看到另一个女人在她心目中的男生，对那个男人说“sweetheart” 的时候， 那第一个女人该做什么？是不是我想太多？希望是吧。因该是吧。

回到这儿，没有你的日子，告诉自己，必须坚强。坚强的等下去。心理，只能默默的享受，回忆那天，那温暖的拥抱，那温暖的安慰。你说你从来没这样抱过任何人，我也从来，没被人那样抱过。想起来，好温暖，好舒服。好想再哭。。。希望有人能够这样的安慰我。保护我。自从来到这儿，就从来没有感觉到，什么是温暖，什么是关心。想出去走一走，也不自该找谁来陪我。第一次，身边的朋友，只有几位。说更要好的朋友，就一个也没有。感觉来到这里，好像被人利用多了。但也没办法。 原本想来都这儿开始新生活，结果。。。 还是办不到。

我。。。 可不想当那些一天到晚询问男朋友的消息的那些女人，也不想当一天到晚控制着你生活女人。但，不这么做。。。 又没有安全感。默默的沉在心里不说， 又好像一个什么都不管女朋友。所实话，我们，到底，是不是真正的男女朋友？ “我们还年轻，不噢你干的什么是爱情”。对这是你所过的，但。。。。。 是我多情，还是什么。。。。 为什么。。。。 我中有一种放不下你的感觉？每一分每一秒，第一个想到的就是你。想买最棒的生日礼物送给你。我到底是真么了？是疯了吗？还是。。。 这才是爱？我也不知道。。。

说来说去，我还是错的人，竟然对你吃醋。不想别的女人靠近你。但我又不想控制着你交朋友的圈子。吞下这一切，又想要吐出来的感觉。越想越觉得自己好没用，好笨。什么都做不到。像诉苦，但又不知该找谁。知道你最进烦恼多，但又不只能做什么。好没用。对不起。。。。 我真的很没用。不知到该做什么。想帮又帮不了。自己有烦恼是又只会 找你。想相信，你所说过的一切，但自己又没信心。想相信你和他只是普通的朋友，她有男友，却又做不到。I’M SORRY!!! 对不起！！！！！ 读完后请被生气。 对不起！

See?? this is wat i wrote to him... just wanna keep it.. i've never written something lk this in my life! y must love be so COMPLICATED????!!!!! 

almost ending

Try staying up till 7am n this is wat u get>>>

So one more week of hol... and classes gonna start soon!!! haiz... feel lk my boring days are ending... no more sleeping at 7am... T.T