Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Lonesome~ <3

Everyone feels lonely~ having no close friends around them.. Since i came here.. my objective was to just pass uni.. n get back home.. is not that life her is boring.. i mean.. i have friends and all. I go out.. shopping, watch movies and have fun. But it still doesn't feel quite right. 

Friends : Are just people, who i spend time with. To let my time pass by. So i know.. my days of reaching home, is coming closer each n everyday. So tat i don't feel that i'm stuck in a corner, not being able to do anything.

Close friends: Backbone. Heart. And the life in me. I know, that a close friend, will not share their problems... cause they know if they do so... the other will not feel good as well.. is till only the problem becomes so big till they themselves can't even handle it.. thn only they'll come to u.. n speak to u... 

They care about how u feel first before themselves. They don just come running to u.. complaining every single problem they have. May sound strange but.. that is true.. Keep everything to themselves... to make sure that they don't bring u their troubles.. Although i hate this but, is what all true friends do.. to be by your side.. n make sure that u r happy.. all the time.... that y i love u.. to see u being able to do that.. keep everything.. make sure that i don't feel the bad things of u.. n only ur joy... i miss u T.T

N honestly.. i have no idea how strong m i... i go out.. wearing a mask every single day.. come home.. go to bed.. n just dream of u... 

SERIOUSLY! who could u dream of someone for 3 nights in a row?! Stay strong... how strong?! maybe that's the real reason y the stone exits in my heart.. or is there something else? LONESOME~